Thursday, January 19, 2006
I'm scared
So afraid to show him I care
Will he think me weak
If I tremble when I speak
Oooh
What if
There's another one he's thinking of
Maybe he's in love
I'd feel like a fool
Life can be so cruel
I don't know what to do
I've been there
With my heart out in my hand
But what you must understand
You can't let the chance
To love him pass you by
Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself
Touch him (Oooh)
With the gentleness you feel inside (I feel it)
Your love can't be denied
The truth will set you free
You'll have what's meant to beA
ll in time you'll see
OoohI love him (Then show him)
Of that much I can be sure (Hold him close to you)
I don't think I could endure
If I let him walk away
When I have so much to say
Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself
Love is light that surely glows
In the hearts of those who know
It's a steady flame that growsFeed the fire with all the passion you can show
Tonight love will assume its place
This memory time cannot erase
Your faith will lead love where it has to go
Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Whisper words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself
Oooh
Never let him go
and ignite your bones.
23:39
lights will guide you home.
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
oooh. got a mortal tdy! haha. ok, we're playin the angel mortal game w our junior class, and well, ive become an angel. :) haha.
hmm wat else?
mondays suck. i dun mean it lik, cos its e start o e wk n al, bt its cos of e timetable. ugh. imagine hvg 2 periods of pe to kick start yr wk, followed by 3 periods of GP straight, 1 math lect, 1 math tutorial, HALF a break(cos the tcher let us off late), 2 periods of physics tutorial, 2 chem lect, 1 chem tutorial. and by the time everyth's over, u feel lik dying. great.
aft sch, sat ard n bitched w bel..tt girl was feelin pretty dwn n we spent out last few coins buyin food frm the bookshop n sat in e tuckshop to chitchat..zhongyi joined us..yeah..
oh. grey's anatomy's nice! im wondering if IF i ever do gt into medicine, wld my life be lik tt too?? fighting to see patients, backstabbing, losing my ethics,...... :(
and ignite your bones.
00:52
lights will guide you home.
Sunday, January 15, 2006
ahh. mkg plans to escape to perth during the march hols! yay! joyce n i will be flyin up (or rather dwn) to mt my parents who will be gg there earlier..mom's workin on her phd so will nd to mt her prof downunder, n joyce n i will join them! haha. at least, tts tentatively lah..nth's confirmed yt..jz lkg at several tour packages. yay! australia! here i come man! :) haha.
woke up bright n early yday to attend e med soc exco mtg at macs.was weird lah.lik, e whole grp of us was there n no one bought anyth frm macs..so i felt e nd to buy a cup of milo..haha.oh well. thn aft tt, walked ard opposite parkway w angela.ate a curry puff for lunch..din hv egg inside,sadly..got onto bus 15 just as joyce got off..haha. qt funny.aft tt, came home, watched tv..the making of tatu's frn or foe music vid..haha qt cool..went to suntec w jiawei in e late afternoon..was at city hall mrt waitin for him whn i saw this grp o guys..one of them decided to lie dwn on e grd all o a sdn, and this whole grp gathered ard to gawk. crazy attention-grabbers. turns out tt jiawei had arrived earlier thn i did, for once. came home, sat dwn for a while, and thn left for church. half o e time i was complainin abt e minus 20 deg c of the church rather thn pay attention to the sermon.gee. had a makan session aft mass..realised i feel v out of place there cos i din noe anyone at all. no vj ppl, no sn ppl(ok, theres one, bt i dn qt noe her),..NO ONE!!!
MAT!!!!!!!!!I CANT WAIT TIL U MOVE INTO STARVILLE MAN!!!!!THN WE CN GO OLPS TOG!!!!!!!!!N I'LL VISIT U N STARGAZE!!!!!!!! whee!! :) :) :)
and ignite your bones.
09:34
lights will guide you home.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
sigh this is depressing. srs. rushin out report. cant do anyth til the 2 guys pass me their parts. so nw im blogging abt my fruitful day. yknw. explainin y u gt NEGATIVE, NIL, NULL results is highly demanding. yup. those are our results. lovely.
anw hmm lets see wat hpnd. aside frm e depressing parts lah.. hmm. went to parkway aft sch to collect my deposit of 50 bucks for the mem card for my phone haha. anw oh!! hi, if anyone's reading this blog n ive forgotten to inform u tt ive changed my hp number, ive changed it! haha. erm. ask me for it one day...msg me..haha. wait. u cant. oh well.. ask me online or sth..its a nice number! lots of "7"!! haha..my fave number..wait. actually tt wld be e number 17..oh well. 7 is half of my fave number haha
met up w gary for dinner..he screwed up his chem o..qt sad lah..its lik, e last part yknw? the expt part..whoa..nt bad man..hvg gotten this far...bt his stupid salt din crystallise.. :( so dunno wats gna hpn lah...
and ignite your bones.
20:08
lights will guide you home.
Sunday, January 08, 2006
sth clement said gt me thinking..thinkin abt myself..nt in the selfish way..bt reflecting upon my attitudes, my facade,..i dunno. he tld me tt despite lookin strong on e outside, im stil a girl inside.
last night, i called gary to sob.
i dunno. its lik. hes this calming element in my life. somehow his endless complaints abt trivial matters lik nt topping the standard for any subj hlp me forget my sadness, if only temporarily.
i realised sth, i cant break dwn in front o ppl. it will totally contradict the happy, jovial, bubbly image o lynette lee tt they hv in their minds. i dunno. if ppl only knew me, they wld realise tt maybe im nt all tt happy aft al. bt how many ppl actually knw me? or bother to? hence i must wear this mask.
all the world's a stage.how true eh. shakespeare.
and ignite your bones.
23:12
lights will guide you home.
better get a scholarship n go somewhere far far far away before the parents throw me out of my house for real man.
better mug lik shit this year.
and ignite your bones.
09:00
lights will guide you home.
Saturday, January 07, 2006
went home frm sch tdy. feelin qt dwn cos the whole srs proj's crumbling n no one seems to give a shit. jon had to send his frn off cos he was gg to the army, gee. its the army only man! wuss!! ha. oh well. n for some unknown reason(tuition prolly), yq cldnt mk it tdy too. theyre smart. i shldnt hv gone myself. the whole mornin was an utter and complete waste. hell. all the freakin days and goodness knws how many hours i spent in the s n t centre are all a complate waste man. no freakin NTH showed up whn we ran the electrophoresis. lik. fuck. :( siigh.
i fucking give up. OK?
sigh. i dunno. went to the swing n sat there on my way back. somehow the swing brgs back memories of my childhood, which brgs me back to a time whn i knew nth abt RNA and micropipettes and hence, this made me feel better. bt i cant escape frm the futility of our proj by swinging.
went to suntec yday for the mass dance aft srs. clem n shaun had to wait for me til i finished extracting RNA. gosh. think they gt qt bored. anw mass dance was...a mess. i din noe e steps n guess wat? i decided to dance right under 2 bright lights at the corner of the road where cars frm every side driving past can see me and my two left feet. right.lost my voice, bt gained it back agn tdy in time to scream whn i saw a headless rat on the pavement on my way back home. gee.
anw ive gotta buy a new phone man! its alw either the party on the line cant hear me, or i cant hear them. gee. lovely phone eh.. gt my eye on nokia 6111 nw..
and ignite your bones.
15:09
lights will guide you home.
Thursday, January 05, 2006
ahh. first entry of 2006..on mat's bday! haha :) MAT!!! CHECK YR MAILBOX MAN!!!
anw hmm so wat's been up, aside frm plans to shut this dwn? cant bear to delete it somehow. its a feelin of nostalgia whn i read the entries, bt tt i cn get frm my own private journal sittin in my drawer..haha. shuiying (whn u do come online..dunno whn tt will be) its in the last drawer of my new table, just in case i shld die tmr or sth..so tt u cn bury it w me. all my bittersweet memories...ahh. ok. morbid. i dunno y i think abt stuff lik tt. hell. ive evn written notes to all my frns shld i die accidentally. bt tt was last year. oops. i meant 2004.
so whassup girl? things hvnt changed a bit since we last met...
anw oh! excited abt the mass dance thing at suntec on fri!!! whee!! :D :D :D haha.. erm. think the response frm the class girls seem lukewarm..so im gg w the guys + gary! haha. oh well. prancing abt ard the fountain while tourists gawk at u. what an enjoyable acitivity man! haha. hmm. think clem's comin over to my hse aft sch tmr..though i dunno wat time he'll be able to come cos ive gt srs.. =S
gettin qt sick o pipetting those micro things. its lik, one small mistake leads to fatal error man. its GRRRRGGGHHHHHH annoying. :(
so whassup girl? things hvnt changed a bit since we last met...
and ignite your bones.
20:12
lights will guide you home.
